Hi. I'm finally back to this blog after god knows how many eons.

Been feeling the urge to express my most intimate feelings and reciting my life poetry to the whole world (wow.) so here i am, back on this self-expression godsend.

Finally had the chance to shoot and document our latest redesign concept project. It was really fun working with my group! Really entertaining bunch of peeps (and Sarah is constantly the bullied one of the group which makes it really funny)!

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Been quite a hard and weird start to this semester, after fucking up so much 'cos of depression and personal issues. it was really, really hard for me to "restart" and be back on track smoothly like in Year 1, nevertheless i think i'm ... doing quite okay. i hope.

i need to revisit my life goals and interests though, it seems i'm losing my fire in lots of things, well after i've started losing people and motivation in my life. shall not go into it 'cos fuck feelings.

honestly, i don't even know why i'm still alive sometimes; some days you just feel like a mere waste of space even though you know you've done some contributions to a friendship, school assignments, whatever.

being someone who's constantly struggling with self-worth and depression, i really miss having someone to encourage me and make me feel good and wanna make things work. i miss having someone to revive my dead heart and ignite passion in things i'm fighting for; always letting me know he/she've got my back.

i guess this is the painful part of growing up. you realise you don't even care if you miss a day of school, simply because your friends might not notice, and there's really nothing - nothing for you to look forward to.

back in secondary school days though, missing a day in school felt so shitty because you'd miss a day to interact with your friends and those meant everything to me.

maybe i really have to start growing up, and learning how to be comfortably alone. it's a tough pill to swallow, but i guess i'll be able to take it.

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