i'm such an EPIC FAIL.
my results is such a FAIL, my phone balance is such a FAIL, my social life is such a FAIL, even I MYSELF IS SUCH A FAIL.
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i wanna rot...
shit la.
why the fuck am i so ignorant and blur.
and insensitive.
i'm really causing alot of people misery and pain.
so many people emo cos of me...
either i neglected them, or i was being insensitive.
wtf is wrong with me ):
i don't wanna live.
this world is hard to live in.
i'm causing so much misery to this world.
everyone's suffering cos of me...
life sucks.
looks like i wasn't being paranoid.
my thoughts were correct.
should i...
just push you away from me?
and stop you from suffering any longer...
it hurts me to see you like that.
idk, what has become of us?
when did all these changes happened?
alright, maybe i was being too ignorant to notice the change.
maybe, i was the one who changed.
why...
my heart is hardening.
i'm rejecting everything i could.
i just wanna hide in my own world, mind and heart, and just cry forever.
but i can't.
there's still family, friends and school around me.
i have to live like a human.
put on a smiley facade, be a sociable person.
idk, idk, idk.
i really don't wanna lose all these.
damn it.
i wish, i could live in the virtual, dreamy world instead.
or, maybe it would be better if i was a blind, a mute, or a deaf.
.......... i seriously don't know what to do!
God, help me ):
i need Your guidance...
life seriously sucks.
fail fail fail.
i'm such an EPIC FAIL.
i'm gonna shut myself from the world, hopefully for the whole of Sat.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee world. i wish i can die in my dreams.
gonna drown myself in lots of alcohol.
byeeeeeeeeeeeee.